Today is the 14th Father's Day without you. Everyone keeps telling me it gets easier, but once again I am alone with my memories instead of celebrating it with you. The family is celebrating once again with my father-in-law, but I just can't bring myself to go. I want to be with you instead. Luckily everyone understands (well almost) and I don't feel guilty for not going; I sent a gift and card to my "other Dad". But he is never going to be you. I wonder if my heart is ever going to heal. I miss you so much Daddy, and so does the rest of the family. I'm so jealous of my husband and that he gets to spend the day with his beloved Dad. I still feel so young to be without you.
All in all, I'm still surviving. I have your namesake to look at and see your smile. I'm so happy he was sent to me, but what a surprise. The angels look after us, and Charlie tells me that his Grandpa says he loves us both. I can't believe he has never met you, and yet he can pick you out of a picture anywhere.
I miss you, and I remember you today and always.
Love,
Daddy's little girl.
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Now that's a tear jerker. I find it hard to write one about my father.
ReplyDeleteYou are going to make me cry, my friend.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry I didn't think of your sadness on this holiday with your dad not around. I'm glad you wrote him a note and put it out there. And based upon what you've told me about him, I'm sure he watches over you constantly.
You were blessed to have had such a great and loving father.